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   I was going to come on here today and write a happy post but my heart is just not in it today. For that I am sorry. I don't mean to be a downer but there is a lot that is weighting heavily on my mind today.

 I found out a little while ago that my cousin has passed away. We don't know how or why, yet. She was young and in relatively good health.  It's just so odd.

   She hadn't really settled down yet but that was just Chris. She was a wild child at one time but she was beginning to really find her place in life. She found a good job, a loving fiance and was in a good place. It's just so wrong and so weird that she is gone. Out of all my cousins and all my family (and if you really know me, you'll know my family is massive) we had the most in common. Kind of black sheep of the family, same interests, same love of our Arabic heritage and their more awesome past times (Hookah) and amazing food, same love of music, loud, outspoken, obnoxious. She'll be missed. 

   So, in light of all of this, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the people who take the time to come here, that read my ramblings, take the time to send thoughts and prayers or give words of encouragement to me when they don't have to, a big huge thank you. I don't know if I say it often enough but I think of all of you. I appreciate the support you have shown me and if you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to ask. Send me a message, drop me a line.

  I know it's quite obligatory to hear something along these lines when someone dies and at the risk of sounding cliche, I'm just going to say it. Be sure to tell your loved ones, family and your friends that you think of them. That you know that everyone is busy and time flies by but let them know that you love them and you think of them and that you're there for them if they need it. Sometimes it feels good to remind people of that fact. Sometimes it feels good to read it.

   Love you all.

-C.